Thursday, August 11, 2005

Only you...and me, and everyone else.

If you've done some introspection lately, you'll realize that not much has changed about you. In terms of your inner self. Externally yes, a lot would've changed! Let's not even go there - appearance, responsibilities, financial status, marital status, parenthood and all that blah, blah...that is the circle of life and most of us (most...) have to go round it. But...have you ever felt this? I mean, your thoughts, your basic thoughts remain the same. Of course, as you grow older in this life, most of those thoughts become memories. "Ah, I used to think that way too" or, or smile at a youngster and think "teenage." But that aside, what you are, you're the same. And in that sense, you don't feel a day older than school. Yeah, every now and then, along comes an event or person to remind you to 'play' your real age, your exhibited self. But that's it. When you're alone driving, smoking, lying in bed or even sitting on the...you know what, every morning, you are back being the kid, the thoughts playing hide and seek with themselves. Your 'real' opinions about things, which are not much different from when you were a ...say, 10 year old peep from your mind. And it's remarkable how our body is actually shielding our real self, like an astronaut's gear. Insulating it and keeping it warm. And you carefully treasure that self day in day out. Looking at it every now and then, taking a peek at it when nobody's looking.

20 comments:

Arunima said...

but I am looking. Infact, I looked very close and read it up :-)

phatichar said...

arunima: ah...we let it slip out every once a while huh? ;)

Kahini said...

I love the way you get straight to the heart of things.

This is so true.

phatichar said...

kahini: :) btw, life back to normal back there, I hope?

Sudipta Chatterjee said...

Yes, but trouble starts when the guard is down... that spells the recipe for disaster.

Prerona said...

brilliant. as usual.

Akruti said...

There are so many instances when i feel the same,specially with my students,i tell myself "i was the same when i was their age" but i know somewhere deep down that i might have become sober and more matured but basically i am the same:) the issue and thinking gets broader but i still can see the same what i saw before:)
This will be one of your best posts which i read,straight to the point as someone already said:)

d4u said...

:-) :-)

Ash said...

Oh yeah ! And the people closes to us are those that know our 'real' selves the most ... and lucky are we indeed, to find life partners in whose company we don't need the 'shields'
:)

phatichar said...

sudipta: absolutely!

parna: thx.. :) how's the cookin' coming along?

akruti: thx ma'am... yeah, especially when you're always in younger company such as yourself, you're more in touch with your real self..

ash: true... :)

GratisGab said...

Yes, the insides don't really age. More data that's all.

Parna said...

there are things which definitely change with years,and then again some which remain the same. like a child preserved.

anumita said...

There have been some changes. But you are right, the basics remain.

A Cynic in Wonderland said...

That is so true! I catch myself often in the middle of these really big meetings where people are discussing future of brands and companies wondering to myself, heck what am i doing here, this talk is for GROWN UPS!!!

KJ said...

so very true. yes the basics remain. but with time priorities change & then again with time we come to a full circle.
how is aayushi doing?
have a nice day

KJ said...

so very true. yes the basics remain. but with time priorities change & then again with time we come to a full circle.
how is aayushi doing?
have a nice day

writesetting said...

hey, nice job here. we're trying some experiments of our own and we said something quite similar. please do check and leave an opinion behind.

manuscrypts said...

hmmm, but we do change.. entire value systems change, perspectives change... its only very basic things, lets say (arbitrarily) my fave color is red', that dont change...

n.g. said...

well, some people dont change at all, coz they've always been themselves. its hard, but i guess it comes naturally to some people.

phatichar said...

gabby lol@ more data :)

Parna: :)

anumita: yep..

cynic: hehehe, i've thought that a zillion times..

KJ aayushi's fine KJ, thx for asking.. :)

writesetting: boy, u sure have written a lot! will read it at leisure, hmm? thanx for dropping in

manu: yeah, true, but wht i meant was deep down your thinking pattern remains the same..whtever the change from outside..

nish hmmmm u have a point there..